Samantha Gullekson

GriefCocoon, WIP (2020-present)

Black wool crocheted by hand in a continuous spiral

~3ft in diameter

I began this cocoon shortly after my mother was diagnosed with terminal cancer with the goal of creating a cocoon which I will be able to lay within once it is finished. The act of crocheting is meditative, and since the stitches are simple, I have the space to process my feelings. With each stitch, my hands work to convert my emotions into an orderly physical form.

Processing my feelings and maintaining my own mental health has been especially important this past year, as the pandemic has made my various roles particularly difficult to balance. In order to care for my mother, I have had to leave behind my children; and to care for my children, I have had to leave behind my mother. It has been an incredibly challenging time, yet I am so thankful to have had the opportunity to show my love as a mother and to my own mother through these acts of service. My artistic practice has helped me find peace, balance, and the energy I need to care for those around me.

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